So i just got back from our 3 day retreat in tagaytay. I never thought that i would be able to bond with my classmates the way that we did for the past 3 days. And in those 3 days, it wasn't just the fact of being away from home, it was the experience that me and my class shared with each other.
Before leaving for the retreat, all i could tell myself was "don't share". Why? Well all i could think of was, i'm not close enough with these people for me to tell them my problems. They would never understand. They might think i'm shallow or they might just judge me even more. And what the hell? I don't really care. But during the last day of our retreat, everyone proved me wrong. Turns out, i'm not the only one. The problems that i have, are the same problems my classmates were faced with. We all felt alone, lost, insecure, depressed and worthless. But after sharing small patches of our problems, all those feelings looked so small. Our issues became smaller than the connection that we all developed.
At the end of the day, everything still comes down to God and ourselves. God will never let us experience something that we cannot handle. It's always something that would make us stronger, wiser and better. If only we let him in and let him take the wheel, things would be okay. Not perfect, but okay. And that's good enough for me. I know that I've built my walls around myself pushing away everyone and even God. But i guess, God used my classmates to tear down those walls.
SO AT FIRST WE WERE ALL JUDGEMENTAL AND SHIT.
AND THEN AFTER THAT WE REALIZED HOW WEIRD AND THE SAME WE ALL WERE.
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